violet soft light, I’m in a small boat which is floating through a huge lake. there is glass hanging on ropes form the sky. me, and other people try to get them. when succeeded, everyone made an artpiece out of his glasses, how were shiny like crystals but very very thin and fragile. these crystals had colors like pastel red, royal blue and salmon. others were out of nacre. I was watching how the others were making mosaics, they counterfeit special and memorable moments of their lives. it was all so quiet and wrapped in a beautiful silence, we could only hear the sound of the waves. it was perfect, commemorate life after death, paradise like, but in a different way.

times running. feels like i’m always moving. so restless. going to the city on the weekend and staying there for 2 nights, summercamp ahead. its may, but soon its june, and in july, well, the end will be close. I’ll go travelling until the end of july, and feels like weeks are passing faster than before. one month ago i came back from borneo, it feels like yesterday when i was on my way going to cebu.. its weird. kind of dont know how to handle that. 

drown in nostalgia. well.. is that possible? I mean why? sunshine, sea and good people around me every day.. i kind of have the feeling someone special is falling in love with me, and its just my decision, how far i’ll let it happen. but i want to be in the cold again, i want my dog, bretzels and unlimited fresh milk. i want to drink alcohol. a lot. i miss going out. dancing to my beloved electronic music. i want to be foolish and naive and that no one cares how i behave. i want to have fun and meet people who are stupid and stoned and i want to smoke and wake up with that horrible feeling. living in the philippines was a pleasure so far, and i know that there is a lot more to come until i enter european soil again.. i learned my lesson already though.. time passes extremely fast anyway. i want to enjoy the last months, and figure it out with that, or any other handsome filipino. kay kissing and so on really came too short in the last 7 months.